MY JOURNEY FROM MANIC TO MINDFUL

At the pinnacle of my design success I made the difficult decision to listen to my heart, and I haven't regretted it for a single moment! 

It's been a rollercoaster of a journey, but I'm so happy with how it's all panned out. These days I mostly feel that my life and business are aligned with who I really am, but it wasn’t always this way. Here's my story: 

Five years ago I was juggling three businesses, and two children, constantly pushing myself to do more. I was an expert at multitasking, but always overwhelmed, stressed and exhausted. I knew my wheels were spinning and that I was stuck, but I carried on struggling, desperate to make my mark. 

No matter how hard I worked, how much I chased the dream, I just ended up going round in circles. My time and energy were spread too thin as I divided my focus, constantly multitasking and working round the clock. 

With each passing year I felt life rushing by and wondered whether I would ever catch up with the time I had wasted. It was an internal battle, I had no pressure from anyone but myself, such high expectations. My potential had become a big burden that seemed to weigh heavy on my shoulders.

And then finally I had my chance. The opportunity to exhibit at a prestigious design fair in London with my own design label, Patterns Apart, a luxury brand of patterned textiles and accessories. 

I had plenty of interest from high end department stores, licensing companies and international buyers, but I was hesitant about being able to fulfil the demand. 

Then, thoroughly exhausted by the pressures of the event and the decisions that had to be made, I crashed and burned. 

At that point all I could do was surrender. I craved time at the spa, and began to spend more and more time there, which gave me the space to clear my head, to rediscover my intuition and to listen within. 

One day, whilst relaxing in the hot tub, I had a flash of insight about my deeper purpose, which involved inspiring others to connect with their true brilliance and shine. 

After that profound insight, I shifted gear, reinvented myself, and set about intentionally designing a life I loved. This involved certifying as a coach, joining a high-vibe community of spiritual entrepreneurs, travelling the world and launching my glitzy new brand and freedom-based business along the way.

I’d finally worked out how to create success on my own terms and to achieve true freedom and I was in my element. I have to say I haven't looked back for a moment, and that I've been happier than ever. 

It's such a relief to tell this story, and to share how I've been able to shift from manic to mindful since then. I'd love to know if you've been through something similar yourself. 

The experience literally turned my life around. I'm now fiercely protective of my time. Plus self care is high on my list of priorities. Stay tuned for ideas and suggestions that could help to shift your life too.

Rozynna Fielding

Rozynna Fielding, Brighton, United Kingdom